My father is 51. Hes dying. Hes miserable, and because hes miserable, I'm miserable. My father has emphysema, COPD, and possibly Silicosis from the construction materials he worked with. He has trouble breathing, and is in constant pain. My father was a prick when he was healthy, and now hes even worse. I'm getting to the point where I'm not sure if I'm a good person or not, because I dont even want to be around him anymore. Hes my father, he helped bring me into this world, and now hes on his way out, and I dont even want to be around him. Not because I dont want to see him suffering, or because I feel bad for him, but because hes absolutely intolerable.
Worse still is that hes driving my mother insane, and my younger brother and sister try to stay out of the house as much as possible. And with the current economy, and our financial situation, things are tense at best. My mother is going to end up having a nervous breakdown, and I dont know what to do. My father's business flopped, and we're deep in the hole. We lost our old house, and we ended up moving 1000 miles away from where we all grew up. We somehow managed to finance a house in Georgia based on my father's disability alone, and my mother is working two jobs to try to make ends meet. I'm having problems finding a job myself trying to help the family out.
I have a feeling I may just end up moving back to Rhode Island, moving in with my best friend, not only so that my family wont have the burden of trying to help support me (there are no jobs in this area, but I've already got interviews lined up in RI, so my friend wont have to support me either), but just to get away from my father. I think hes trying to push us away so we wont be sad when he does die, but hes pushing too hard. At this point, I would just leave my entire family behind just to get away, its so bad. This morning he decided he was going to walk around the house at 6:00 AM and bang on a pan with a spoon until everyone got up. Hes constantly on my case because I dont have a job, not that I'm not looking, but that doesnt matter, because if he were to go out to get a job, he'd have people jumping on the oppertunity to hire him (according to him).
I dont know what to do.
